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For over ten years I have been craving and in pain for babies, three babies to be exact, but after a while, at least one begged God, the Universe, and Spirit to let me experience this motherhood. please. please.
fast forward. I have two delicious, nice, amazing little people who call me “mommy” and run around the house and completely destroy everything. I couldn’t be happier and more satisfied. i am a mother
I have everything I need in my life. My basic needs are met. I have fulfilled my lifelong dream of becoming a mother. i want it for free Still, I feel the desire coming in. I want this, I want that I want to be in a warm place when it’s cold. When I’m in a warm place, I miss my community in a cold place.The more you focus on what you want versus the absolute perfection of what you have, the more frustration and disconnection you create in your life. should do it Just being grateful for what I have… I want more.
Wants and desires are perfectly normal and very human. Creative, dynamic and lively energy! It’s so energizing that I can get into the feeling of desire in a really positive way. I just know that I have to observe the obsession and really recognize what it is doing to my present moment consciousness. That’s the magic place. sometimes.
I respect my desires and want to listen to them and delve into what they are trying to reveal to me. When I get what I want or get over wanting what I want, I find that it is superseded by another desire. I think these desires are a way for me to learn more about myself. That is why I try to suppress desires and desires, even though I enjoy indulging them so much. And it’s a magical place, remember? Why would I want to do anything to separate myself from magic?
Rather than running around in search of pleasure and avoiding pain, the yoga tradition teaches us to live a balanced life. It teaches us to practice movement, breathing and present moment awareness to be a witness. In that state of consciousness, we are aware of our desires to seek pleasure and avoid pain, and can discern choices to find what Buddhists call the ‘middle path’. This middle way was really frustrating me. Who would want to choose the “middle way” from such a boring and mundane life? Inadvertently or not, what I’ve learned by choosing a higher or lower path is that the middle path is great. Zen. it is transcendent. That’s where the ego’s hooks of desire are far less likely to sink in. Without those hooks, I’m free.
One of the best resources I have found to honor my desires without obsession is to follow Deepak Chopra’s book. Seven Spiritual Laws of SuccessI had never been so drawn to Deepak until I met him and spent time with him. One of his favorite sayings of his is, “Infinite flexibility and creativity are the keys to immortality.” He was the one who practiced these spiritual laws that I observed, and what I felt in him was the “lightness of being.” I wanted it! To obey these laws is to live a life of entrustment, with complete trust in the universe and an open mind to all its magic and mysteries.
As we move into a new year, it’s time to reflect on what’s working and what’s not, and set the life intentions we want. (Look it up!) Because when I do, I live my life in sync with the spirit.
Gina Murdoch is the founder of Lead with Love, an Aspen-based nonprofit dedicated to changing cultures from fear to love. Lead with Love hosts The Awakened Society Initiative with Dr. Lisa Miller + Columbia University. Join us in inspiring Zoom conversations. Contact January 10th from 5:30pm to 7:00pm anne@ileadwithlove.org for more information. For more information on Lead with Love, please visit: http://www.ileadwithlove.org.
